Been a Long Time...

So about a week ago... my good friend Atom Ant, told me i've been slipping on my blog. As Usual he's right. i feel like my thoughts have been very empty. Maybe just unworthy of publishing. i do not want my blog to be filled with the agonies or discomforts of my days. Nor do I wish it to have the makings of a dark tone. But thats what I'm good at lol.

so New Question:

What makes us feel Secure? Is it the approval of our followers or critics? Or do we have a part of us telling us that we have succeeded? whatever may be true of you, i have learned that no matter how much we approve of our actions or thoughts, there will always be something holding us back. A desire to be elevated amongst our peers. Something that makes you more than another opinion. i believe it is human nature to look for security in such an irrational thought. how can we be truly influential if all are for what we believe. Life is a debate, a constant drama that dictates the relationship of two elementary forces. Good vs. Evil. (have I gone off tangent enough yet???) What I mean is, there is a certain level of comfort in that madness. Comfort = Secure. When we are often praised we will always cash in our insecurities at the end of the night. When we are at our lowest, we carry them throughout our day. I am slowly losing my point, and I fear this may happen if I don't Just say. Be yourself, days will get tough, and things will get mundane. And yet no matter how much you fear that you are just another spec, a lifeless organism, that means nothing and affects nothing, You are the only one that can make change. If you want success, find out what success means to you, divide by 100, and make that goal. That is the first step to finding our place, our home, our sanctuary in this world. You want the Cars, the Money, and the Women. First you must obtain A: transportation (plane , train, taxi, bus); B: Job (Paper Boy, bake sale, McDonald's, something); C: A Friend (YES A DAMN FRIEND), and then you can build from there. Learn Physics; Energy is the only thing in the Universe that CANNOT be destroyed...ONLY REFRESHED AND REUSED. Do Not waste the time you have to use it. For you, only MATTER, and you are steadily approaching expiration.

- Mr. Haymon