I'm New...

lately I feel like I've been a different kind of Person. maybe It's because I am slowly breaking out of this shell that use to worry or care what people wanted of me. And now I feel as though i owe it to myself to tell those same people to piss off! Maybe I'm being a little conceited. But, isn't that really a good thing compared to being miserable? So what...I don't have tons of money, or the latest fashions, or have sex on a daily basis. But I am still the coolest/realist person someone could meet at my age. I mean if i don't do things the way most would, that makes me an individual, or even creative. SOmeone, please enlighten me to how people can continuously praise anyone like that. Someone who makes a point that they stands over you. They preach to you about how you have nothing they have, or won't achieve anything they do. How can you love or be attracted to anyone like that?
Is this blog post centered around women? Maybe I'm tired of empty compliments from women. Let's try something, tell me the truth, I'm a nice guy but I'm just not fly, you need a man with money not some young philosophizing dummy. You wish to find a man like me, but you'd rather fuck my opposite. Sorry for the lingo. I think I'm frustrated that i hear so many good things about me, only to be slapped in the face by gentle temptations based off of fallacies. Tell me, is my friend based based on my wealth? I never talk about my money. Wise people have already told me, when you find your wealth someone on the other side will find a way to exploit it. I'm going to just continue on my path. My artwork has been getting stronger (sorry no new artwork for the blog in this post, promise some for the next one), my writing has found more feeling, and my mind has begun to swell with all types of knowledge. I'm not sure where I wanted to go with this post, but i needed to bleed some frustration. i'll continue this another time...

Gotta get this off my chest

Illusive images increasing inadequacy.
Fake floozies flagging fashion.

How dare you comment on my Attire..
While yours hold the ashes of frequent fire

Rags, commoner, washed in commodes.
You smell of the burning tar of roads.

Demon soul, art taker
Corrosive heartache, mind shaker.

ramdom rant...

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Someone's Watching my time

The past few years, I've always wondered, Why do I seem to get extremely lucky. I've pondered this and continue to do so even to this very moment. I am quite sure I can't be just endowed with close calls and etc for nothing. So i wondered, is this a test of my faith. Not to be confused with my religious faith, Just a simple thought of faith. Now if we look at www.dictionary.com 's definition;

faith  [feyth]
–noun
1. confidence or trust in a person or thing: faith in another's ability.
2. belief that is not based on proof: He had faith that the hypothesis would be substantiated by fact.

We can take from these two definitions that, maybe people have faith in me. Faith that i will achieve something meaningful to not only them, but myself. This thought that someone is holding me up on a pedestal brings a sense of fear. Fear that i may not be able to live to such an expectation. But it also brings me a sense of comfort and vitality. I feed of such faith. As I'm sure many before me have gained some sense of courage or morale from such a thought. If you've never felt the power of faith, listen closely.
├Q├I am Robin Haymon and I am telling you, Yes YOU, can achieve anything you so choose. Many people may have told you, "you can be anything you want to be, just work hard at it!" This is not the message I am trying to pass to you. Think of your WILDEST dream. Go Ahead Imagine, paint the entire picture in your eyes as you read. Now single out one thing, got it? Now think of its extreme worst condition. I.e. Limousine to a taxi, or Kerry Washington to The girl that likes you and has potential to be gorgeous (Mind you your peers tell you not to involve yourself with her because she isn't up on the trends). Now that you have these contrasts, think of how you will get from A to B.
*You should be thinking instead of reading here!*
And There you are...now you have a plan to acheive, the rest is up to you and father time. ├Q├

And then we are left with II., which states "belief that is not based on proof: He had faith that the hypothesis would be substantiated by fact". This really adds on that same very thought "you can be anything you want to be." How can people believe something they have no evidence of. Whenever someone brings that question to the table, all that you need to hold in your mind is that You would want a complete stranger to believe in you. Why do we elect presidents and etc. Its the principle of faith that we hope they prove to be fact.So this leads me to final thought.
Someone Must be monitoring my life. This isn't average paranoia, because this isn't shrouded with fear. Well... I think I'll save this for Next Time. So I guess you'll have to tune in next time.

Been a Long Time...

So about a week ago... my good friend Atom Ant, told me i've been slipping on my blog. As Usual he's right. i feel like my thoughts have been very empty. Maybe just unworthy of publishing. i do not want my blog to be filled with the agonies or discomforts of my days. Nor do I wish it to have the makings of a dark tone. But thats what I'm good at lol.

so New Question:

What makes us feel Secure? Is it the approval of our followers or critics? Or do we have a part of us telling us that we have succeeded? whatever may be true of you, i have learned that no matter how much we approve of our actions or thoughts, there will always be something holding us back. A desire to be elevated amongst our peers. Something that makes you more than another opinion. i believe it is human nature to look for security in such an irrational thought. how can we be truly influential if all are for what we believe. Life is a debate, a constant drama that dictates the relationship of two elementary forces. Good vs. Evil. (have I gone off tangent enough yet???) What I mean is, there is a certain level of comfort in that madness. Comfort = Secure. When we are often praised we will always cash in our insecurities at the end of the night. When we are at our lowest, we carry them throughout our day. I am slowly losing my point, and I fear this may happen if I don't Just say. Be yourself, days will get tough, and things will get mundane. And yet no matter how much you fear that you are just another spec, a lifeless organism, that means nothing and affects nothing, You are the only one that can make change. If you want success, find out what success means to you, divide by 100, and make that goal. That is the first step to finding our place, our home, our sanctuary in this world. You want the Cars, the Money, and the Women. First you must obtain A: transportation (plane , train, taxi, bus); B: Job (Paper Boy, bake sale, McDonald's, something); C: A Friend (YES A DAMN FRIEND), and then you can build from there. Learn Physics; Energy is the only thing in the Universe that CANNOT be destroyed...ONLY REFRESHED AND REUSED. Do Not waste the time you have to use it. For you, only MATTER, and you are steadily approaching expiration.

- Mr. Haymon